Saturday, June 21, 2008

quick pic

I thought that I would take a break from my recent attempts at graduate work and post a little fun from this past weekend. This pic was taken on Father's day while we were putt-putting with my family. Aaron and I played 3 games of putt-putt that weekend!

Tuesday, June 17, 2008


Aaron left this afternoon and even in the last few hours before he left I found myself longing. Longing for more time (despite the fact that I'd already been graced with one more day), longing for this leaving crud to be over, longing to have my thesis written and behind me, longing to be married and have kids. Longing for so many things. Things that I know are part of what God has planned for me, at some point. I guess the factor for me is that the time for those things is not now. I have no reason for being impatient with God. Who am I to think that I would want things any way other than the way He has planned for me? 90% of the time I understand why things are the way the are and know that deep down I would not want them any different. Lately it seems that I seem to be living in that other 10%. The 10% of the time where I am not satisfied with where I am, with who I am, the 10% of the time where I find myself longing to be someone else/to be doing something else.
It seems easier to wish that things could be some other way than to be satisfied with who/where I am in life right now. I am amazed at how much time I have wasted (in just these last few days even), time that I could have spent working on my thesis, one of any number of projects, etc. I spent time on my drive home tonight wondering and asking God for an explination as to why I seemed unsatisfied. In some ways I could just feel God staring back at me as if to say "You've got to be kidding, could you really not understand how you wound up here"? And yet in the next flash I could see His arms extending towards me begging me to come back into His security and comfort. God knows what's best for me and yet I, in my flesh, fight Him--wanting to do things on my own. What a stubborn and ungrateful child I am sometimes.

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Aaron's coming!

Aaron's coming! Most of you who know me at all know that this alone makes me a very happy camper. :) That happiness is increased even more by the simple fact that I don't have to teach at all while he's here! Unfortunately I am going to have to do some research for my thesis across the several days. At this point I cannot afford to take a few days off of that project :(.
Hopefully I will be able to post more over the next few days. I'm really hoping that I will have some new pictures, esp. of the two of us!

Thursday, June 5, 2008

long time no blog


That is how I feel after these last few weeks. There have been wonderful mountain tops and also snotty nose/teary eyed valleys. I would love to say that I had the time to catch you up on everything that's been going on but unfortunately I am in class and that might get a little suspicious if I'm typing that much. While I am often feeling overwhelmed I am also recognizing more and more that I am so very blessed. The end of school is finally in sight and I could not be happier! Don't get me wrong, I have loved my little kiddos (for the most part:)), I am just tired of having so much on my plate. I am looking forward to a few months where my primary focus will be graduate school and not balancing between both schools. Ok...enough of that.

Here are a few pictures for your viewing pleasure.

Two cutie pies!

Watch out! Aaron's got his game face on!

I love this little boy SO much!